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hay.. bket p kc ako ngcheck ng friendster e.. e2 tuloy.. ngblo-blog n nmn ako..
hay, kwn2 kwn2 muna… suppossedly kahapon, irish and i are having a movie marathon, since our luck ran out last wednesday… pero ung dog niyang c fluffy nanganak, so it was cancelled. speaking of wednesday.. worst luck sobra. para kaming ng-amazing race, ewan ko b,, mei hang-over p ata kme dun s last episode of amazin race season 9 last week [w/c of course, our bet, the HIPPIES won the 1-million dollar prize].. so ayun nga.. we met at robinson’s mla para manood ng the da vinci’s code… however, wla na pla, pinalitan n ng xmen3.. argh! so we went to the a net cafe.. tpos we found out that both g1, g4 & powerplant malls are showing da vinci.. so madali kme.. hay, pero we’re 25-mins late s powerplant.. so sayang nmn, ang mahal n nga tpos d p nmin naumpisahan.. so we decided to go for g4.. wee.. abot! but nung nsa counter n kme.. sbi nung ticket lady kelangan ng document to prove that we really are 18-yr olds & above.. wow! ayaw mniwala n college grads n kme.. c irish mei voters id.. but me wala.. so much for all the trouble 6pm n nun.. di p kme nglalunch.. stupid da vinci code.. stupid theaters..stupid me to forget my stupid cedula.. asar tlga.. so postponed ang aming panonood ng mi3 & da vinci till next week.. sna meron pa..
and the rest below is censored.. hehehe read at ur own risk.. [ngyek!o_O;;]
what has happened? di ko n rn alam e.. bsta ang alam ko, on that faithful nyt, i found myself writing a letter, pouring everything i wanted to say there.. but where’s that letter now. stuck in the file case… coward ako e.. or maybe i just thought n sobrang impulsive nung letter n un… pero alam m b4 i did that, i first read all ur letters and i figured out.. how stupid really i was… i drove my bestfriend away… coz of usual reasons: i dunno how to trust ppl, ive got a big green monster inside me, and i really am selfish [ang popular m kc e.. friendly-friendly]…. kc alam m dun s letters m,.. lagi n lng ikaw ung ngco-console sakin.. pero sobrang nkapagpaiyak sakin ung drawing m ng duck.. kc alam ko hnd k ngdro-drawing e.. [maliban s mga symbolic images/signs] tpos.. u there.. doing everything para lng mapasaya ako.. hay.. ang sama-sama ko nga nun e.. di b ngtampo p ako sau nun.. pero alam m b.. lagi m cnsbi sakin s mga letters m.. n parang iniiwan kita.. 22o b un? kc ako nrramdaman ko dn nmn un e? n parang iniiwan m ko..
i am doing fine.. pero it really did hurt me nung nbasa ko, uve denied the existence of bestfriends. cguro ako rn nmn kung ako ung nsa posisyon m, maybe di n rn ako maniniwala s knila n ng-eexist cla… after b nmn ung s HS story m at nging kaibgan m p ko. sa totoo lng, nung mga unang araw sabi ko pg tinatanong nla ako, bkit d kayo ng-uusap ng bff m? ssbhn ko cnung bff ko? and then i would laugh it off. well, in fact.. nun p lng kkbalik nio gs2 n kita kausapin. pero sbi ko nga sau d b, duwag ako.. and besides, bka ireject m ule, like nung una n tau ngkaalitan, u told me there was nothing to talk about.. although para sakin there was a big deal to talk about.. pero xmpre di n kita pinilit, nhhiya dn nmn kc ako e.. ngmukha n nga akong tanga dun s bgay ko sayo, kc parang nireject m rn ung idea n un, tpos nireject m p ule ung tangka kong pkkipgusap.. eh nhiya n ko sayo.. hay, ang gulo.. pero u know what.. khit mgkagalit tau, tawag ko p rn sau bestie.. di ko nga alam bket e..cguro sanay n lng akong gnun.. haha.. haay.. nhihirapan nga ako pg nkikita kita e.. alam m ung feeling n gs2ng-gs2 m kausapin ang isang tao, pero alam m n irereject k dn lng nmn nia, so why waste my effort?.. nku, s totoo lng kung mei mga alipores lng ako, pnakidnap n kita, para lng makausap kita.. not to console our friendship.. or rebuild it.. but to strengthen it.. hay, pero parang imposible n ata.. mxado ng malaki ung gap.. feel ko ngumpisa p toh nung ky balong e.. [but im glad OK kayo! nakz!! mei lovelife n xa.. if i cud only meet him again... babatukan ko xa tpos tsaka ako mg-aapologize for all the selfish thoughts and words n cnbi ko tungkol s knya.. pero thats fantasy.. d n ata mngyayari un].. un nga kc since nun, parang nging cold k n towards sakin e.. pero gnun tlga.. u like the person, and i insulted him [cguro ung taong d m p inaasahan n mgsabi ng mga gnun].. at ksalanan ko tlga… or baka paranoid lng tlga ako.. kelangan n ata mgpa-psych ward ako e..
sa totoo lng, i cnt imagine my life w/o my bestfriend… at s totoo lng ang haba n nito.. ang vague ng future.. nsbi ko nga ky irish nung isang araw, di ko ma-picture out ung sarili ko working as a nurse.. imagine b nmn… halos lahat ng plans ntin.. mgkasama tau e.. share an apartment [pg nsa abroad n], overseas trip, learning foreign language, practicing in the same hosp, taking board exams & passing it.. grbe.. pati broadway db? haay..kya cguro gnun.. nllabuan ako.. kc di ko alam panu n.. mgging hermit n nmn ako.. alone.. eh pagod n akong mgisa.. pero gnun tlga.. it was my fault.. i drove u out of my life.. the only bestfriend i had, the only companion i had. haay.. ang cheezy noh… ayaw n nga.. nku.. bka lalong hnd n kita mtgnan eye-to-eye.. s sobrang embarrassment.. and tulad nga ng cnbi ko sau dati… im happy nkilla kita.. much more than happy.. life changing e.. ur the one who allowed me to rediscover my passion for reading books, supported me s mga kalokohan, ka-ek-ekan, ka-cornihan ko, helped me through my direst problems.. at ikw lng ang taong kaya kong tawagan ng humihikbi p, pgtapos akong pgalitan ng mom or dad ko.. hehehe haaaaaaaay……… thank you for all the memories.. grbe andmi nun.. pero unforgettable tlga ung graduation.. we’re like barefoor princesses.. and maybe fare well.. aah di ko n alam.. . btw, buti nmn at pinaparamdam m n ang 22o mong nrrmdaman ky balong.. s mga tao.. =D Goodluck s board.. kaw p.. talino m e.. yakang-yaka m yan.. ……………………………………………………………………………
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so thats it! grbe! happy pla ako nnalo c taylor hicks s american idol season 5!!! weee… =D
i dunno what will happen after this.. but thats life/// il just work it out..
