its been a while but hey, im back, time to upd8 this freakin, boring, silly blog again -______- ive posted b4 n s feb 28 pa kme uuwi, pero n-NPA kc kme dun.. kaya e2, back in mla. its been a week n nga e.. and well.. im soooo bored. wlang magawa. although, medyo malungkot tlga s tarlac pag mag-isa k n s gabi, u cant help but think of the ppl you left there. feeling ko, super useless ko, ni hindi man lng natuloy ung medical mission nmin doon. pero khit ganun, im happy dahil nging parte cla ng buhay ko, ang foster family ko, the community ppl, and xmpre ung groupmates ko. tita, mother, pucca miss u n sobra. TL, manager at lapis? kamusta nmn kayo? hehe XD
being left behind. does it really matter if ur the only one left behind? wat are u going to do, force urself, move on, be invisible, or act like u dont care and ignore the fact, that while u r still waiting everyone around u, had moved on and living a happy life? [happy life? ngyek!]
andame n ngng sermons n narinig ko e. pero para nmn akong isang batang ippasok s isang tenga, labas s kbilang tenga. nirerespeto at naintindihan ko nmn xa e, y he should leave, actually dapat nga masaya p ko, kc cnabi nia ung reason kesa nmn bgla nlng xa nglaho. pero ang babaw e.. sorry.. ur so vague. hnd ko lam kung dapt k bng hintayin. kung ggwin m nga ung mga cnbi m nun. sabagay, mga bata p tau nun, ano bng alam natin s mga binibitiwan nting salita? y should my tears fall for u? bkit bsta nlng ipapaalala k nla, i feel like im being torn apart, n parang gs2 ko mgbreakdown.. i thought im doing well… but its only a thought.. im not well at all.. pero thankful ako sau, kc kung hnd dahil sau, wla akong mgging basehan, ibg sbhn bka kung cnu nlng guy dyan ang nging bf ko noh.. hahaha pero dahil s kkahintay sau, ive never gave anyone a chance.. pero ga-grad8 n ko e. tpos n ang abstinence hahaha joke tpos n ang pgging masunuring anak, ppayagan n nla ako. i dont wanna be left behind. however, ur the one i wanna be with. should i w8 4 u? s**t. hnd ko alam ano ngustuhan ko sau. dahil gwapo k? mayaman? matalino? maputi? nakkaaliw? talentado? dahil ang ganda ng boses m s telepono? hndi e… hanggang ngaun iniicp ko p rn, bkit.. kso hndi ko alam.. pero i think ive fallen in love with u, when u called and admitted ur weakness, and that behind ur smiling face, theres this person who wants comfort, understanding, and acceptance. i dont want u to go. i should have said this b4, i dont want u to go.. yadda..onegai.. ikanai de.. ikanai de.. anata-nashi dewa ikiru koto ga dekimasen.. y cant wishes come true? y should ppl hurt themselves?
