nahihirapan n ako. hndi ko na alam ggwin ko. gs2 ko tlgang mging masaya. pero bakit gnun, ang hirap, ang hirap mong kalimutan. sana di m nlng ako pinapansin. sana 2lungan m nmn akong kalimutan ka. hindi m alam, kung gnu khirap n isuppress ka. hndi m lng alam, pero ang sakit sa loob na pag andyan k, pinipilit kong icpin n wla k dyan. hnd m b alam, n iniiwasan na kita. pls nmn 2lungan m ko.
have i really fell for u?..
sakit ng ulo ko. knina pa ako nhhilo. putik anemic kc e.. and i always 4got to take my iron supplements q week. haay.. forgetful kc sobra e.
but anyway… feeling ko ngaun.. wakaranai!! di ko alam. ang gulo. ang daming pngyayaring nganap. parang ngcng lng ako knina. at sabay-sabay humampas ang problema sakin. pero gaya nga ng sabi ko DONT PROBLEM THE PROBLEM. wow! what a philosophy, parang hakuna matata, hassle-free philosophy. *sings hakuna matata, timon and pumbaa*.. haay, ano ba yn, kung anu-ano pngllagay ko d2. di ko nga dapat pinuproblema un kc prob nla. pero affected ako e. asar. pero 1st thing’s 1st, have u ever felt so damn stupid and tired? haay, di ko alam. inis tlg. u tried to forget him. tinanggal m xa sa utak m sa systema m in the entire xmas break, and here he comes again, parang kabute bglang susulpot, at then my heart goes tokimeki. doki.doki. haaaay…………. ayaw na… -_-
i lost ur pic. i was going insane this morning, for no matter how hard i tried to find it, it just wont come out… i love staring at that picture of urs. >,< its like the only memory i have of u, when we still get to hang out together. and whats the worst part of losing ur pic, now ur stuck in my mind. i cant get it off.. y did u have to go? y didnt i stop u? i shud have. i shud not have let u go. no matter how i tried to get u off, ur stuck like a leech that constantly feeds on me… until i cant go on anylonger…
i have a wish, and i wish it wud be granted. just one tym. just for a minute or two. i wanted to see u. hang out with u. talk with u. and maybe this time, we could continue… or maybe we could put an end to it. i’l be waiting… btw, happy new year! ^_____^
another year has passed and now we’re on year 2006. wow. 
the previous was fast-track. i can still remember how i usually whine about it. why it has to be so fast. yet no matter how much i whine about it, i cannot stop time, as a proof, today’s alrealy jan 1 2006. really fast.
previous year for me was the most tiring and challenging one ive ever countered, yet its like a turning point in my life. for last year was, maybe the 1st time i had my voice back. what i mean to say, is the year when ive learned to say whats really on my mind, when my opinions are being heard and appreciated, and when i learned how to stand up for my own ryt and for myself. last year, ive learned to be real independent. and im glad.
last year, hellos and farewells are frequent. we are taught not only of nursing subjects but also of accepting reality, that not everything we wanted can actually be achieved. not all dreams & wishes are granted. and not all problems have solution. that’s life. sometyms it teaches us to be cynic, but whats the most impt thing ive learned in 2005 - the value of friendship. i had attacks - well its a sort of a disease u see, the feeling u get when u are on the verge of losing sum1 esp, ur friend - i tried to distance myself from my friends bcoz being closer to them means being hurt worse thats why i did it. i tried to argue with them, quarrel with them, get angry with them [even its such a shallow reason].. but u know what they didnt leave me… now i know that they are really my real friends, bcoz no matter what adversity may come, they’ll be there. we will face it together. 
