hay.. namimiss ko n mga tao. bestie ko wala rn dito. wala tuloy sumusubaybay sakin. wla akong mgpasumbungan ng mga hinanakit ko s buhay. wla rn mag-aadvice kung anong ggwin ko s isang sitwasyon. hay, nhihirapan ako.
pero masaya ako. hindi ko alam bkit. maybe bcoz finally, i was able to suppress u. yehey! *throws confetti* ang saya. parang ngaun mkkangiti n nmn ako, ng wla lng. masaya kc hnd n ko nsasaktan. hahaha 
haaaaaaaaayyy, boring life.
i love this email.. some of the quotes are true and some are not.. it just depends on how u have live…
Josie Geller: Sometime you’ll kiss someone and
know that’s the person
you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life.
—NEVER BEEN KISSED
The only wrong thing would be to deny what your
heart truly feels.
—THE MASK OF ZORRO
You will see a lot of things,
But they will mean nothing to you
If you lose sight of the one you love.
—AT FIRST SIGHT
If you love someone you say it…
you say it right then,
out loud…
or the moment just…
passes you by.
—MY BEST FRIEND’S WEDDING
I would rather have had
One breath of her hair,
One kiss from her mouth,
One touch of her hand,
Than an eternity without it…
—CITY OF ANGELS
You will be doing anything
For the one you love…
Except love them again.
—FAITHFUL
Fate exists but it can only take you so far,
Because once you’re there
It’s up to you to make it happen.
—CAN’T HARDLY WAIT
When you’ve found that person you want to spend
the rest of your life
with, you want the rest of ur life to begin right
away."
—WHEN HARRY MET SALLY
"Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you
walk away with
nothing."
—ALLY MCBEAL
I hate the way you talk to me And the way you cut
your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even
makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh…
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you’re not around…
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you…
Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.
—Kat Startford (10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU)
"If two people are meant for each other, it
doesnt
mean that they are
meant for each other NOW."
—Pacey Whitter "DAWSON’S CREEK"
Lois: You know, if somebody had asked me three
days ago who the one
person in the world I admired most was, I’d have
said you. But, without
really knowing what that meant. Without
understanding that the hardest
thing about being you is all the things you can’t do.
All the cries for
help that you can’t answer, and how that quietly
tears you apart. But it
never stops you. And after living a little of that
myself, I realized
something…something I never thought was
possible.
Clark: What?
Lois: I love you more. More than I ever have and
more than I ever
thought I could love anyone, and so, I wanna
ask…will you marry me?
—LOIS AND CLARK
I know it’s a cornball thing, but love is passion,
obsession, someone
you can’t live without. If you don’t start with that,
what are you going
to
end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find
someone you love like
crazy and who’ll love you the same way back. And
how do you find him?
Forget your head and listen to your heart…run the
risk, if you get
hurt, you’ll come back. Because the truth is, there
is no sense living
your life without this. To make the journey and not
fall deeply in
love…well, you haven’t lived a life at all. You have
to try. Because if you
haven’t tried, you haven’t lived…stay open. Who
knows? Lightning
could strike.
—MEET JOE BLACK
Man: "Will you love me for the rest of my life?"
Woman: "I will love you for the rest of mine."
—PHENOMENON
I guarantee there will be tough times.
I guarantee there will be one day when one or both
of us would want to
get out.
But I also guarantee that if I do not ask you to be
mine,
I’ll regret it for the rest of my life…
because I know in my heart you’re the
only one for
me.
—RUNAWAY BRIDE
Dear Catherine,
I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you for so long. I feel
I’ve been
lost. No bearings, no compass. I kept crashing
into things, a little crazy
I guess. I’ve never been lost before. You were my
true north. I could
always steer for home when you were my home.
Forgive me for being so
angry when you left. I still think some mistake’s
been made and I’m
waiting for God to take it back. But I’m doing
better now. The work helps me.
Most of all, you helped me.
You came into my dream last night with that
smile of yours that
always held me like a lover, rocked me like a
child. All I remember from
the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with
that feeling and tried to
keep it alive as long as I could.
I’m writing to tell you that I’m on a journey toward
that peace. And
to tell you I’m sorry about so many things. I’m sorry
I didn’t take
better care of you so that you never spent one
minute being cold or scared
or sick. I’m sorry I didn’t try harder to find the words
to tell you
what I was feeling. I’m sorry I never fixed the
screen door. I fixed it
now. I’m sorry I ever fought with you. I’m sorry I
didn’t apologize
more. I was too proud. I’m sorry I didn’t bring you
more compliments on
everything you wore and every way you fixed your
hair. I’m sorry I didn’t
hold on to you with so much strength that even
God couldn’t pull you
away.
All my love. G.
—MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
"The only feeling of real loss is when you love
someone, more than you
love yourself."
—GOOD WILL HUNTING
"I love that you get cold when its 71 degrees out. I
love that it takes
you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love
that you get a
little crinkle in your nose when you’re looking at me
like I’m nuts. I love
that
after I spend a day with you, I can still smell
your perfume on my
clothes. And I love that you are the last person I
want to talk to
before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because
i’m lonely, and it’s
not because it’s New Year’s eve. I came here
tonight because when you
realize you want to spend the rest of your life with
somebody, you want
the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
—WHEN HARRY MET SALLY
When you love someone,
And you love them with your heart,
It never disappears when you’re apart.
When you love someone
And you’ve done all you can do,
You set them free.
And if that love was true,
When you love someone
It will all come back to you
—FORGET PARIS
You cannot find true love where it does not truly
exist. And you
cannot hide it where it truly does.
—KISSING A FOOL
I created my very own first breakup rule: Destroy
all pictures where
he looks sexy and you look happy. Breakup rule
#2: Until emotionally
stabilized, enter no stores. Breakup rule #3: Never
stop thinking
about him, even for a moment because that’s the
moment he’ll appear.
And finally, the most important breakup rule: No
matter who broke your
heart or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get
through it without
your friends.
—Carrie, from the sitcom SEX AND THE CITY
"I miss you so much it hurts"
—SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE
"Half my days I cannot bear not to touch you, the
rest of the time I
feel it doesn’t matter if I ever see you again. It isn’t
the mortality,
it is how much you can bear….."
—THE ENGLISH PATIENT
Do you believe in love? I bet you don’t, you’re
probably too sensible
for that. Have you ever seen someone and you
know that if only that
person really know you, they’d dump the perfect
model they were with and
realize
that you are the one they want to grow old
with? Have you ever
fallen in love with someone you’ve never talked to?
Have you ever been so
alone you spent the night confusing a guy in a
coma?
—WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING
"Anything less than mad, passionate,
extraordinary love is a waste of
your time. there are too many mediocre things in
life to deal with and
love shouldn’t be one of them."
—A DREAM FOR AN INSOMNIAC
"I’m here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to
protect you. I’m
here to learn from you and to receive your love in
return. I’m here coz
there’s no other place to be."
—MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
"Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I
saw, of what I did,
of who I am. And most of all, I’m scared of walking
out of this room
and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I
feel when I’m with
you."
—DIRTY DANCING
"When you kiss
someone, everything around you
becomes hazy…and the
only thing in focus is you and this person…and you
realize that this
person is the only person you should be kissing for
the rest of your
life…
And for one moment, you get, this amazing
gift…and you wanna laugh
and you wanna cry…cuz you feel so lucky that
you’ve found it and so
scared that it’ll go away all at the same time…"
—NEVER BEEN KISSED
"It’s funny how we set qualifications for the right
person to love
while at the back of our minds we know that the
person we truly love will
always be an exception"
—Ally McBeal
"How can you assume to be friends with someone
when all you think about
when you look at him is how much more you really
want?"
—Joey, DAWSON’S CREEK
If two people love each other, but just cant seem to
put things
together, when would that point be…when one
would say enough is
enough?
NEVER.
—THE MEXICAN
"So this is love…so this is what makes life divine.
I’m all aglow,
and now I know. The key to all heaven is mine. My
heart has wings and I
can fly. I’ll touch every star in the sky. So this is the
miracle, that
I’ve been dreaming of…so this is love."
—CINDERELLA
Don’t you understand? That everything I do, I do for
you? Anything that
might be special in me…is you.
—GREAT EXPECTATIONS
One day, you look at the person and see more
than you did the day
before, like a switch was flickered somewhere.
And the person who was just a
friend is suddenly the only person you can imagine
yourself with.
—X FILES (series)
I feel like the best version of myself when I’m with
you…and that
makes me doubt everything else.
—KEEPING THE FAITH
Is it possible to be just friends with someone I
have these sort of
non-moderate feelings
for? Or am I doomed
forever to just be in love and
ultimately significantly hurt?
—FELICITY
"There are some people who meet that somebody
that they can never stop
loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t
expect you to
understand that, or even believe it, but trust me,
there are some love that
don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy,
but we should all be lucky
to end up with that somebody who has a little of
that insanity.
Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who
cherishes you forever."
—Ally Mc Beal
natapos n nmn ang isang araw. ang bilis. parang kkgicng ko lng knina. at e2, 3 days n ako 19. shite. tanda n. oh well, lahat nmn tau dun papunta e. so di ko n ganu proproblemahin un.
bkit b ganun, khit sobrang asar ko sayo nung bday ko dahil iniwan at pinagpalit m ko dahil s lintek n harry potter n yan.. eh nung kinausap m ko knina.. parang nawala lahat ng sama ng loob ko. hay, khit pinuntahan m lng ako para sabhn ang prof m at mgtanong kung mabait b sya.. at hay naku pkiramdam ko gnagamit m tlga ako.. masaya p rn, dahil nkita kita. haay… corny! ayaw na. pero di bale, nwwala n nmn pramis. 
dapat lng kc kelangan ko n rn mging matured person. i cant forever be a child and i know that. and if maturity means letting go of some of those impt persons in my life.. then i will. ikaw lng nmn un e. no big deal… hay.. ccmulan ko n tlga bukas. paalam n sau.
my 31st post. wow. galing ha. kung susumahin nkka-isang buwan n ko ngbla-blog d2 s friendster. aliw ule. bday ko ngaun. este kahapon pla. 14 mins n ang nakakaraan mula nung bday ko.
nakkainis. one of the worst bdays of my life. nakakainis. buti n nga lng andyan cla tinny, megale, at noy e. tenkyu tlga guys. buti p kau, hndi nio ako pinagpalit s harry potter at s trabaho nio. salamat tlga. hndi ka2lad ng ibang tao dyan. akala ko p man dn mabait ka at maaasahan, ang bait m kc kahpon e. un pala ka2lad k rn nla, ng-iiwan k rn. ayoko n sau. expect m di n kita klala. u are like them. u are like my parents. asar k tlga. hayaan m, madali lng nmn kita ma-su-suppress eh. lalo p gnwa m ung ngyari knina. kung kelan kelangan ko tlga ng kasama at mgppasaya sakin, knina k p nwla. as expected from ppl i care most about [lahat kau! klala nio n kayo] lgi nio akong iniiwan. adults are really selfish. matured ppl are really selfish. waah.. i really HATE U! kung pwd lng kitang sapakin ngaun, ssapakin n kita. asar k tlaga.
sa taong pngpalit ako s harry potter. STAY AWAY FROM ME!
hay… aba akalain m 19 n ako. shite.. tanda ko na. at nov 20 ang simula ng advent.. saya. hehehe
masaya ako kahapon, nov 19, 2005. harhar!! ah bsta andaming ngyari. tpos mei gnwa p akong este cla.. mali ule, kame plang kalokohan. hahaha D: 1st tym kong gwin un.. kaloka. sumasakit n b tiyan nio? … ehehe
bka sabihin nio npak-desperada ko na. in connection with my previous post. let me clear up sumthing, di po ako ng-aantay ng lovelife.. i just want or needed somebody to show and make me feel that im not alone.. kc lagi nlng clang ng-iiwan e. adults are so selfish.. they only think of themselves.. how come they tend to forget those ppl around them when they have found their special sum1. they suck. it sucks.
u! yah u. hay… nakkainis k tlga… pls be informed that i hate users. alam m yan, sna naaalala mo ung cnbi ko s lts. i dont forgive ppl. there’s no such thing as forgive and forget. i dunno whats up with u.. pero feel ko tlg, ur startin to get on my nerves. dont be such a hydroceph.. just bcoz u know that i like u, that doesnt mean that u can use me… so PLS lang tigilan m na. tama na! >.<
nappagod n ako. nappagod n ako manirahan at mabuhay sa isang mundong wlang ka-kwenta-kwenta. nappagod n ako s buhay ko. sa buhay kong puno ng kasinungalingan, kadramahan, at kamalasan. pagod na akong ngumiti, tumawa at magpakasaya s harap ng mga tao, khit alam ko s sarili ko na hnd nmn tlg un ang 22ong nararamdaman ko.
nappagod n akong mghintay. npapagod n rn akong laging mag-isa. nppgod n akong umasa at magpkatanga, n balang araw ay mrrmdaman ko rn ang pkiramdam ng pgging 22ong masaya. bkit ba ang buhay parang life. lgi n lng gnito. lagi nlng ganun. ayaw ko ng mg-isa. takot akong mg-isa. bkit b lagi nio nlng ako iniiwan? nkkainis n. ganun ba ako ksama. bkit b pg ksama ko kayo, lging parang may kulang sakin, na pkiramdam ko hnd nio ako gs2ng kasama o di kaya ang presensya ako ay isang pabigat s inyo. alam ko masama akong bata. hndi nmn mganda ang ugali ko. hindi ako marunong mgtiwala s tao, n pkiramdam ko lahat cla ng-ggamit lng. bkit b kc nging gni2 ang kinalakihan kong mundo. mundo n puro kasinungalingan at pag-papanggap. ayaw ko n pagod n ko sa lahat. ayaw kong mg-isa. ayw ko tlga. takot ako.. nttakot ako.. if only i am turtle.. i wud have hid under my shell.. fall asleep.. and never to wake again… nttakot tlg ako.. ayaw ko ng mg-isa.. ayaw ko ng pkiramdam n toh.. bkit b hnd na ako marunong makaramdam..bkit ba hindi n ako marunong mgtiwala.. kelan p nawala ang tiwala ko sa tao? s mundo? s kaibigan ko? s pamilya ko? at sa sarili ko.. hndi ko n rn matandaan.. i dunno myself anylonger.. i cnt even my find myself.. im so lost.. pls find me.. i dont wanna be alone anymore.. tama na.. ayw ko n.. pls find me.. nttkot tlg ako…………………………
you can be right
and I’ll be real
honesty won’t be a pain that you’ll have to feel
cause I don’t need your approval
to find my worth
I’m trapped inside of my own mind
afraid to open my eyes cause of what I’d find and I
don’t want to live like this anymore
does it scare you that I can
be something different than you
would it make you feel more comfortable if I wasn’t
you can’t control me
and you can’t take away from me who I am
have you ever felt
like your only comfort was your cage
you’re not alone
I’ve felt the same as you
have you ever felt
like your secrets give you away
you’re not alone
I’ve been there too
cause everyone is looking
and everyone is laughing but I think
everyone feels the same
everybody wants to feel ok
everybody wants to
everybody wants to feel
ito n nmn ako. enrolment n nmin bukas.. ewan pero kung dati cnasbi ko n ayaw ko png grumaduate parang ngaun, s palagay ko ok na. marahil, s dahilang tuluyan na akong nwalan ng crush s plm-cn. kaya ito. another boring day will come to an end. anu bang buhay toh, hindi ko alam kung saan ko n nmn isinuong ang sarili ko. pero after enrolment, i have to act as a 4th yr student n nmn. byebye muna dun s child-like jacq. kelangan ko na magseryoso kung gs2 kong mging magnda ang kalalabasan ng pag-papaguran ng committee ko. ayon sana lng wlang pasaway.. kc OC ako s mga ganitong bagay e.
bakit b ganun? kapag lalo akong inaasar o tinutukso sa isang tao, nwwlan n rn akong ng paghanga dun s taong crush ko.. hanggang s tuluyan n ngang mwla. damn. gs2 ko rn ng color s life ko. ga-graduate n ko ng college, but there are so many things which i havent experienced yet. [shet. wag epal mga green-minded dyan]. parang this is it, is it na. last sem. last sem para maka-experience ng bar at night-out. last sem para maka-experience ng totoong lovelife, patungong ligaya man o patungong konsumisyon [tama ba spelling nun].
gs2 ko lng mgtype at magpost di2 kaya ito.. ang masama nga lang di ko alam kung ano illagay ko d2. kaya ito, kung ano nlng pumasok s utak ko ha. maaari nio akong pgkamalang-schizo pt manifesting flight of ideas, pero bahala kau.
ayon n nga, knina binbasa ko ung blog ko at ung mga comments, nkktakot. parang di ko mapaniwalaan, ako pala toh, ito pla ang laman ng utak ko. khit ppanu pala nkkpag-isip din ako ng malalim at mnsan may katuturan.
hnd ko alam bkit ito ang gngwa ko. cguro gs2 ko lng mg-rant. mglabas ng mga nsa saloobin ko. hay, ang lalim nun ha. ung isang blog ko dati pure english, pero ang drama p rn. pero mas drama tlga pag tagalog ang ginamit n salita, kc malalim ang nais iparating ng bwat salita. [shite, di po ako makata]
naglinis ako ng kwarto ko knina. general cleaning. cnipag lng ako. pero ang totoo nyan, nalulungkot lng tlga ako, dhil ang isa sa aming pinkamamahal n aso, named as Kouji the Pitbull, ay ipinamigay n ng aking ama sa aming mga kamag-anak s quiapo, at doon nlng daw lalaki at maninirahan c kouji.. sana lng alagaan nila c kouji ko, kc ssapukin ko tlga cla pg hndi nla inalagaang mabuti ang kouji ko. hndi ko nga sya nasulyapan nung kinuha sya e, sapgkat ng mga pagkkataong un, ako ay nsa banyo at naliligo, kaya nung nlaman kung kukunin n sya, gs2 kong lumabas ng banyo [hubo't hubad dw b].. pero dahil s hiya hnd ko nlng gnwa, bagkus ay umiyak nlng ako s loob ng banyo. kaya cguro tinwag n comfort room ang banyo kc nkkpg-comfort ito tlga sau s napakaraming paraan. [alam n alam nio yan]
isa rn s mga dahilan bkit ng-aayos n ko ng kwarto at mga gamit ko ay bglang pghhanda saking napipintong pag-alis..oo, aalis ako. mga 2 buwan akong hnd mgpparamdam at mgppkita s pamilya ko, sa mga kaibgan ko, at sa kung kni-kanino pa. kung gs2 nio, dalawin nio nlng ako s sta. ignacia tarlac. putik n cip yan. ayaw ko tlga pumunta, kung hindi lng yan compulsary at requirement s pg-graduate, nku di tlga pupunta. andami ko ma-mi-miss. family ko at xmpre ung mga pasaway, makukulit, ng-gagandahang at ng-gwagwapuhang friendships ko [ngccnungaling ako wahehe]. bkit nmn kc kung kelan k ga-graduate ay tsaka nmn itataon ang CIP. pwd nmn nung 1st yr kme o d kya nung 2nd yr kame.. haay… kung kelan k n paalis at ga-graduate na, ay dun p nila bbwasan ang stay m s skul, ang panahon upang makasama m ang kaibgan, professors at mga pusang ngkalat s Gusaling Katipunan.
andami ko p plang ggwin. mglalaba pa ako ng mga pants, bedcover at pillowcases. hay.. pagod nmn. tpos ung pasaway at demanding kong bestie, andami ring pnapa-drawing.. sus.. sana lng mei art powers p rn ako. ayan pa ung college day, n andami rng aasikasuhin. andami ring mg-bbday.. tpos mg-chri-christmas n pa… hay.. wla n kong pera pmbili ng regalo nio. pwede b isang regalo nlng.. sabay n ung bday at xmas gift nio.. o di kya card nlng.. hehehe
kelangan ko pa ata tlga mg-trabaho para makabili ng mga regalo nio ha. kelangan ko png mamalimos s tabi ng simbahan ng quiapo o tumambay s ermita at qc circle. hay, hirap ng buhay. mei evat png putik at lintik n pahirap s buhay. andami ko ng reklamo s buhay..
